Extinguish Everything

So I just graduated high school…

And the morning after graduation I woke up and something was missing. I’ve been working this entire year to ensure this year would be one that everyone would remember. It was always nonstop work from planning senior activities, to homework, college apps, my job, etc…I was busy all the time. Everyday already had a plan, a task that had to be accomplished, but the day after graduation I woke up and I had nothing. There was nothing for me to do, no obligations, no anything. I woke up with no stress or worries, I could do whatever I wanted to! It was a great feeling, yet I felt empty. I had nothing to do. I’ve kept busy for so long doing random things that when I had nothing to do I felt out of place, I felt lost. I dunno it sounds weird to say but I really miss being busy all the time. I’m enjoying this free time and relaxing, but I don’t know what to do with myself half the time. 

Tomorrow is…

graduation.

So graduation is in three days…Move in day for UF is in about five weeks…where has all this fucking time gone!?! I leave for college soo soon and all three of my best friends aren’t going to be anywhere near me! I’m freaking out…I’m gonna miss all of them so fucking much it’s ridiculous. I graduate in three days…holy fuck.

So the past week was a busy one. Today was the first day I had absolutely nothing that I had to do and it was wonderful. All week I’ve either had to take an AP Exam or plan a senior week activity, and thankfully the hardest has passed! Thursday was hell for me, senior breakfast in the morning, AP test right after, then set-up for casino night, casino night itself, then clean up…damn that was sooo rough. Then Friday I had to finish cleaning up, Graduation rehearsal, more senior week errands, then dinner with friends who felt neglected and finally I passed out. Hah senior week is going to be the death of me, I just hope these seniors appreciate what we’re doing for them.